When all those fingers point inside

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [15/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
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( Chapter Fifteen )

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mood: awake

music: Balloons- DBSK

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [14/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters

( Chapter Fourteen )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, ryden, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: satisfied

music: Breathe- G-Dragon

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [13/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters
( Chapter Thirteen )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, ryden, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: happy

music: lollipop- Big bang

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [12/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters
( Chapter Twelve )

Tags: brendo, fanfiction, ryan ross, ryden, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: depressed

When I am with you, you make me feel like I am falling and by the time you realise that you have to catch me, it will be too late.

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mood: accomplished

music: in da club- 50 cent

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [11/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters
( Chapter Eleven )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, ryden, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: angry

music: live your life- Rihanna

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [10/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters
( Chapter Ten )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, ryden, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

Posted at 04:49 pm | Link | Leave a comment | 14 comments | Add to Memories | Tell a Friend

mood: crazy

music: hey sexy lady- Shaggy

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [9/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals. Lyrics by Oasis.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters
( Chapter Nine )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, ryden, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: aggravated

music: I'm Yours- Jason Mraz

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [8/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters

( Chapter Eight  )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, ryden, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: aggravated

music: no air -jordin sparks

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [7/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters
( Chapter Seven )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, ryden, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: depressed

music: hands down- dashboard conffesionals

It's like I realized that way down inside, I've always been lonely for something. But I don't know what for. It's like everybody in the world want's something. Only they never really know exactly what it is - they just keep finding out what it's not. You know how, when you turn off the TV or you come out of some concert, and everything just feels empty? Like you thought that would be what you wanted, and then it wasn't?

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mood: confused

music: kiss kiss- chris brown

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [6/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters
( Chapter Six )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: depressed

music: 1000 miles- vanessa carlton

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [5/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title and lyrics by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters
( Chapter Five  )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: depressed

music: wonderall- Oasis

One of the worst feelings in the world is loneliness. Sitting in the dark by yourself in the wee hours of the night gently crying. Nobody knows what's going on with you. How could anybody realize what's happening? Everybody you know is resting peacefully in their bed awaiting the new day tomorrow. But for you, there's no difference in the days. They pass monotonously. And before you know it, it's all gone.

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mood: accomplished

music: Beautiful- Akon

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [4/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters
( Chapter Four )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: bored

music: good girls gone back- cobra starship

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [3/20]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters
( Chapter Three )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: depressed

They said smile and be happy, things could be worse.
So I smiled and pretended to be happy and things did get worse.

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mood: aggravated

music: Mirotic-DBSK

Title: Such a Stellar Monument to Loneliness [2/?]
Author : Me forbiddenverses
Rating: R overall (for abuse) but this chapter is PG-13 (for swearing)
Pairing: Main - Ryan/ Brendon
POV: 1st Ryan’s
Summary: Ryan is keeping something hidden within himself, something that he can’t tell anyone else about, something he convinces himself isn’t happening. Can Brendon, Ryan’s imaginary friend from his childhood save him, even though Brendon himself has something to hide?
Disclaimer: This is a kid/high school fic. I doubt Brendon was Ryan’s imaginary friend. If I really owned these boys, would I really be sitting here writing this? No I wouldn’t. The plot is mine. Title by Dashboard Confessionals.
Beta: andinthemoment
Authors Note: At the end.
Previous Chapters
( Chapter Two  )

Tags: brendon urie, fanfiction, ryan ross, slash, such a stellar monument to lonliness

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mood: depressed

Do you ever feel alone and hopeless- like your soul is dead and you're a walking zombie?

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mood: depressed

music: te kill- 30 second to mars

Let me be weightless and empty and light.
Then maybe I'll find peace tonight.

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